TRUST

********** 8/30/98  4:57 PM Begin logging Silken Ties.
      Lord Excalibur | evening GPDS
      *Night Spirit* | good evening Lord E
      *Night Spirit* | hello my love <hiding from GrPa>
      Lord Excalibur | hello my dear
       GrandPaDeSade | Good evening LE
       GrandPaDeSade | Kisses and more of this afternoon for you NS
      *Night Spirit* | shhot small crowd
      Lord Excalibur | how are yoo both
      *Night Spirit* | it is the more I am worrying about
       GrandPaDeSade | Pretty good, and you?
      Lord Excalibur | not bad at all thanks
      *Night Spirit* | Lord E, GrPa attacked me this morning
       GrandPaDeSade | You know what I just put back up downstairs NS
      Lord Excalibur | oh really
      Lord Excalibur | nicely I trust
       Lady Aireanna | Good Evening.
       GrandPaDeSade | ME? <Innocent look>
      Lord Excalibur | hello my darling
       Lady Aireanna | Nice to see you all again
      *Night Spirit* | Good Evening Lady A
       GrandPaDeSade | Good evening LA
      *Night Spirit* | yes he put the double X0Frame back up
      Lord Excalibur | the double XO?
       GrandPaDeSade | Double X frame
      *Night Spirit* | the double X-frame 2 subs on it face each other and 
                     | watch each other suffer
       GrandPaDeSade | She can't spell
      Lord Excalibur | ah right
      Lord Excalibur | oh very nice
      *Night Spirit* | not tonight he was very naughty to me
       GrandPaDeSade | Took her two hours to come back down to earth
      Lord Excalibur | oh very good GPDS
       GrandPaDeSade | Actually, I'm not sure she's all the way back down 
                     | yet
      *Night Spirit* | course walking is out of the question much less 
                     | thinking
      Lord Excalibur | <s>
      *Night Spirit* | hiya little sis
       MoL's Katie J | Good Evening. <s>
       GrandPaDeSade | Hi there Katie
       Lady Aireanna | good evening Katie
      *Night Spirit* | how far are you from Washington DV Katie?
       MoL's Katie J | good to see you GrandPa
      Lord Excalibur | hello Katie
      *Night Spirit* | DC
      *Night Spirit* | see what you did to me GrPa
       MoL's Katie J | good evening, Lady Aireanna <S>
       MoL's Katie J | hello, Lord E
       GrandPaDeSade | We're 2800 miles away
       MoL's Katie J | I'm about a 3 hour drive from DC
      *Night Spirit* | that's alot
      *Night Spirit* | I am stuck there from the 8-11
       MoL's Katie J | There's lots to do there
      *Night Spirit* | I have testify before the grand jury
       MoL's Katie J | all the museums are free <G>
      *Night Spirit* | really?
               sonja | hiyas y'all
       MoL's Katie J | Clinton got you too??
      *Night Spirit* | yes me too
       MoL's Katie J | hugggs, sonja
       GrandPaDeSade | I won't be with her. Can't afford the 1,600 airfare.
                effy | <muttering> hugs y'all
       GrandPaDeSade | $1,600 that is.
       GrandPaDeSade | Hi effy
       MoL's Katie J | All the Smithsonians .. the National Gallery .. the 
                     | monuments .. all free, NS
      Lord Excalibur | hello effy
       MoL's Katie J | hugggggs, muttering effy
                effy | <laughing>
                effy | hugs everyone <s>
       MoL's Katie J | hello, Sweety
       GrandPaDeSade | Back again sweety?
       GrandPaDeSade | Hi
              Sweety | hi
                effy | am i late?
             suchana | Evening everyone   ~ ! ~
       GrandPaDeSade | evening suchy
       MoL's Katie J | I think the summer has everyone on a late schedule, 
                     | effy
       MoL's Katie J | huggggggs, suchy luv
                effy | i spent all day outside and am sunburned!!!
             suchana | ( polite curtsie, Gr Pa )  < blush>
                effy | or is that subburned?
              Sweety | im burnt too
      *Night Spirit* | now we have a few here we can start, tonight's 
                     | topic is trust, do DOMD get it
      *Night Spirit* | automatically or do they earn it.  How does a Dom 
                     | get trust from a sub, and
      *Night Spirit* | should subs just give it away
       MoL's Katie J | no whippings for you, then ... lol
              Sweety | got a back that looks like the Swiss flag
       GrandPaDeSade | And why are you blushing suchy?
             suchana | much love Katie J, effy and Night Spirit
                effy | the suchersmeister!! (c)
                effy | hugs suchy!
             suchana | < because my cheeks are warm GrPa  .. <g>
      *Night Spirit* | and tonight to start the conversation off is the 
                     | winner of New Age trivia,
      *Night Spirit* | suchy----how do you feel about the trust issue?
       GrandPaDeSade | Cute
       GrandPaDeSade | Suchy?
             suchana | Well, Night Spirit ..
      *Night Spirit* | yes suchy?
       GrandPaDeSade | I wonder if the channel is having a problem?
             suchana | I do not feel that trust is ( ever ) a given ..  
                     | absolutely earned .. through
             suchana | open communication,  . and developing a foundation 
                     | on which to  trust.
                effy | <wondering if I should oil suchy's fingers?>
             suchana | i had to think of how to phrase it  .
              Sweety | well phrased suchana
       GrandPaDeSade | I agree about earning it.
       GrandPaDeSade | Especially
      *Night Spirit* | ok suchy how does one develop this foundation?
                effy | imo, trust is absolutely an exploration, and not a
                effy | charted, given thing at the outset
             suchana | I never wish to be ( or ahve my sub sisters and 
                     | brothers ) treated as if they
             suchana | MUST Trust, simply because they are the bottom ..
       GrandPaDeSade | I wish more submissives understood what you are 
                     | saying suchy. It would cut down
       GrandPaDeSade | on the number of clods abusing them.
      *Night Spirit* | how does a sub know when it is time to totally 
                     | trust a Dom?
             suchana | Perhaps developing this * trust* is, open continued 
                     | communication,  and moving
             suchana | at a slower pace .. one that should be right for 
                     | each individual .. If i am
             suchana | wanting to play with you tonight, but i dont know 
                     | you .. perhaps its my craving
             suchana | speaking and not my head ..
       MoL's Katie J | Trust is a living thing ... starts with a small 
                     | seed and grows with love, time,
       MoL's Katie J | and experience with each other.
         Aria (busy) | hello all
       GrandPaDeSade | Hi Aria
         Aria (busy) | hello GrPa
         Aria (busy) | hello NS
             suchana | I also think that ( given room to error ) if ye3s, 
                     | what katie said <S.
             suchana | ( evening Aria )
      *Night Spirit* | hiya Aria
       MoL's Katie J | good question though ... how do you know how far to 
                     | trust on a casual encounter?
         Leda (busy) | Evening, all <s>
         Aria (busy) | go slow?
       GrandPaDeSade | Other people around or not katie?
         Aria (busy) | leave opportunity to play again
       GrandPaDeSade | Makes a difference
         Aria (busy) | <nodding and agreeing>
       MoL's Katie J | well .... let's say not.
       GrandPaDeSade | Then you need to be VERY careful
         Leda (busy) | Helps if you have references--which is not uncommon 
                     | with a cyber community. <s>
       MoL's Katie J | yes, that would help too <S>
         Leda (busy) | In our cases, Katie, I think it made things a lot 
                     | less scary. :-)
       MoL's Katie J | absolutely
           *Spartan* | A good evening to 
                     | all.................................
      *Night Spirit* | you talk to a Dom online for say 6 months, you meet 
                     | in public, s/he seems just
      *Night Spirit* | liked you hoped, you talk and meet again in a hotel 
                     | room, do you trust them to
      *Night Spirit* | tie you up?
       GrandPaDeSade | Say I have you in my house, tied up, and the room 
                     | is soundproofed. What
       GrandPaDeSade | recourse do you have? You need to be very sure you 
                     | can trust me BEFORE getting
       GrandPaDeSade | into that situation.
             suchana | ( totally time to trust )  ... That is very 
                     | debatable ... That is asking for a
             suchana | measure or formula  .. where there is none .. it 
                     | should be based upon past
             suchana | performances and experiences, as they sceen and 
                     | communicate .. and begin to
             suchana | develope trust and it begins to grow .. ( a sub 
                     | would or should know ) based
             suchana | upon the feed back that they give each other and 
                     | the ability of the Dom to  *
             suchana | work* within or gently .. push the limits .. 
                     | knowing His .. or Her place just
             suchana | as well ..
      *Night Spirit* | when do we know to trust the Dom enough to let them 
                     | tie a sub down?
         Leda (busy) | NS, in theory, I'd say no, but we're human. <g>  I 
                     | wasn't planning on letting
         Leda (busy) | Mentor tie me up the first time we played--the 
                     | second time we met,
         Leda (busy) | incidentally--but I did, in the end. <s>
             suchana | Well, my good ness Gr Pa .. may i  ? <S>
       GrandPaDeSade | In a hotel room you can still be bound, gaged, and 
                     | in trouble.
      *Night Spirit* | Leda at that time how did you know you were safe?
       GrandPaDeSade | May you answer, or join me at my house suchy?
         Aria (busy) | perhaps I am unusually trusting, but I have had a 
                     | great deal more trust than
         Aria (busy) | what you seem to be advocating GrPa. I have played 
                     | VERY hard and very
         Aria (busy) | thoroughly after first public meetings, going so 
                     | far as being bound and
         Aria (busy) | blindfolded. I have a sixth sense that hasn't 
                     | failed me yet.
             suchana | ( please forgive me, i must go .. ) dinner is ready 
                     | . and Gr Pa .. # 2 .<S>
      *Night Spirit* | Night suchy
         Leda (busy) | Well--instinct, largely, but also I knew that he'd 
                     | had a sub who was still
         Leda (busy) | online and with whom he still had a quite civil 
                     | relationship. <s>
       GrandPaDeSade | We could put you on the other side of the new 
                     | double X frame we just got,
       GrandPaDeSade | facing NS
             sam <f> | When I first met Joseph he kept pointing out that 
                     | he knew he was safe, but I
             sam <f> | did not and it was he who made me observe what I 
                     | now think of as basic safety
             sam <f> | rules.  He was all he claimed to be, but in 
                     | retrospect I was naive not to have
             sam <f> | put those things in place myself just in case, 
                     | without him prompting me to
                lucy | night suchy
                effy | and besidesm he's a really nice guy <s>
         Leda (busy) | And others had met him.  So he was known, and he 
                     | hadn't hurt anyone, and it was
         Leda (busy) | verifiable. <s>
             suchana | <weg> oh yes PLEASE <S>
             suchana | night everyone <S>! ! !
       GrandPaDeSade | Night suchy
           *Spartan* | <---- had a very trusting look on my face when i 
                     | tina and i first
           *Spartan* | met.........laiap as i always do....<g>...
         Leda (busy) | Huggggss, suchy :-)
       MoL's Katie J | <smirk>
       GrandPaDeSade | 32 floggers alone to try out
         Leda (busy) | LOL Spartan--laiap with a biiiig flogger in hand. 
                     | <g>
      *Night Spirit* | ok so 1 way to know to trust a Dom is referrances 
                     | from others
                Arco | hello silkers
      *Night Spirit* | instincts were mentioned, is that also a good 
                     | indicater <sp> of trust?
       Lady Aireanna | that can some times be a bit misleading however NS
      *Night Spirit* | hello Arco
       Lady Aireanna | <<<<not refering to LE of course>>>>
           *Spartan* | huggs effy doll, NS, kj, leda, aria.........
       GrandPaDeSade | Sounds like the talks I've had with many 
                     | submissives about why they should not
       GrandPaDeSade | trust me unless they know me.
      *Night Spirit* | Lady A continue and hugs of hairy greek god
         Aria (busy) | it has always been for me, but I do many things 
                     | before hand to get to the first
         Aria (busy) | meeting
       Lady Aireanna | <S>
           *Spartan* | :::::::::::blush:::::::::::
                 REX | hi
         Aria (busy) | have a work phone number, so that I know that they 
                     | are on the up and up
         Aria (busy) | and a last name
                effy | well -- i can say that i preface every reference
                effy | requested with a " I know what I like, but I don't 
                     | know
                effy | what you like"
                effy | (hugs Spartan) <s>
         Aria (busy) | i try to talk to someone that they have had in 
                     | their presence physically before
       GrandPaDeSade | I don't think Instincts are any good for this. 
                     | That's what con-men love
         Leda (busy) | Gut instinct is a good factor in trust but should 
                     | not be the only factor, IMO.
         Leda (busy) | <s>
       Lady Aireanna | ...............nothing negative.........just not 
                     | waht it was all meant to been.
                 REX | sweety where u from
                 REX | ?
                Arco | what is the subject?
      *Night Spirit* | ok how about when you first plan to scene in 
                     | private you set times to call a
      *Night Spirit* | friend
      *Night Spirit* | the subject is trust
         Aria (busy) | thats the other back up plan that I have...
                effy | i find issue with that, NS -- what if I am involved 
                     | and
                effy | don't want to stop to call for breaking the mood? I
                effy | know safety must rule, but still ....
      Lord Excalibur | NS, that is something in the past I have always 
                     | told subs to do.
      *Night Spirit* | Aria does it give you a sense of freedom to have 
                     | this plan?
       Lady Aireanna | ..........exactly.........LE was there for me all 
                     | the time ......way back then
         Aria (busy) | i request that we scene for no more than a certain 
                     | amount of time, that I need
         Aria (busy) | to make phone call before and afterwards always...
      *Night Spirit* | effy good point my friend did that, I called her, 
                     | no answer drove 40 miles was
      *Night Spirit* | gonna call the cops
       GrandPaDeSade | effy, the first session may not be as good because 
                     | of the calls, but if you
       GrandPaDeSade | don't, you my not be able to have a second, ever.
       Lady Aireanna | <good friend>
      *Night Spirit* | you should set a time that gives leeway
      Lord Excalibur | there is a problem with this with subs who have not 
                     | "come out"
       Lady Aireanna | absolutely
         Aria (busy) | Well I really disagree with GrPa, about the gut 
                     | level instinct. My instinct
         Aria (busy) | has* Never* been wrong yet. But yes, I feel a great 
                     | deal of freedom to play as
         Aria (busy) | hard as I want to, no matter what, if I know that 
                     | we will play for a short
         Aria (busy) | time, each time we meet at first.
                effy | come out, LE?
      Lord Excalibur | let friends of family know their preferance effy
         Aria (busy) | well if they are transitioning from cyber to real
               Julia | hello
         Aria (busy) | they can always call on of the other cyber subs 
                     | that they know
       Lady Aireanna | hello Julia
                effy | I still do not quite follow you Sir -- there's a 
                     | problem
                effy | with the calling or having someone to call or with 
                     | them
                effy | not being able to tear themselves away?
       GrandPaDeSade | Aria, I know of some very experienced players who 
                     | have been hurt but good
       GrandPaDeSade | chamealeons.
      *Night Spirit* | OK Aria I am going to Washington next week to 
                     | testify about a Dom from
      *Night Spirit* | compuserve, who ripped subs off of lifesavings, and 
                     | tortured them
      Lord Excalibur | possibly Aria (good evening btw) but then thats not 
                     | always possible with this
      Lord Excalibur | being world wide
      *Night Spirit* | I got referrances
       Lady Aireanna | good god
      *Night Spirit* | I called
      *Night Spirit* | I was too far away and ended up injuried
       GrandPaDeSade | If you don't set up someone to call, now one may 
                     | know you are in trouble until
       GrandPaDeSade | it's too late.
      *Night Spirit* | I knew him almost 2 years on line
      *Night Spirit* | and I have been in this game for almost 20 
                     | years....you really do not know
      *Night Spirit* | but we all can't live in shelters forever
                effy | well -- what about the flip side? he *knows* you 
                     | have
                effy | the call to make, and has you make the call as if
                effy | everything was fine? what kind of reassurance is a
                effy | call really?
      Lord Excalibur | very true GPDS, in LA's past time, I had local 
                     | police numbers etc at hand, as
      Lord Excalibur | you know I was to far away to help physically
      *Night Spirit* | must take some risks
       Lady Aireanna | <s>
      *Night Spirit* | effy how about a password
       Lady Aireanna | and he stayed close by at all times too
                effy | <asking stupid questions>
       MoL's Katie J | you just want to minimize them
           *Spartan* | re's......kissin my little one as i get up from 
                     | gettin knocked
           *Spartan* | off>............................<s>..pet......
       Lady Aireanna | nothing is stupid effy
      Lord Excalibur | there is always a risk eliment how ever well 
                     | planned meetings are
       GrandPaDeSade | We do take risks, but we should try to minimize 
                     | them.
         Aria (busy) | i can understand that you got injured... but the 
                     | money issue? why in the world
         Aria (busy) | would a sub give money to a Domme?
            *~tina~* | <joins her Daddy quietly>
         Aria (busy) | This is a high risk game... and even more so for 
                     | me, being a pain slut
           *Spartan* | <perk>...cashola?
       Lady Aireanna | a sub would do anything if she is devoted enough
      *Night Spirit* | ok so how do you know you can trust that Dom about 
                     | to tie you down, what
      *Night Spirit* | precautions should you take, and remember I have a 
                     | good safety article in our
      *Night Spirit* | library for you all
                effy | i remember several years ago a certain Master Black
                effy | or something had a contract that he wanted potential
                effy | subs to sign, whereby they handed over everything
                effy | they owned to him when collared.
       GrandPaDeSade | Effy, if you use the word "fine", everything is OK, 
                     | otherwise not. Or
       GrandPaDeSade | Vice-versa.
         Aria (busy) | on the other hand... i was with lostonearth this 
                     | weekend... i could say to him
         Aria (busy) | before hand that I am a pain slut and beg for more, 
                     | ask him to lay into me and
         Aria (busy) | beat me till my entire ass is black and blue... 
                     | what issue of trust does he
         Aria (busy) | have with me?
       GrandPaDeSade | NS is to Aria
      *Night Spirit* | Aria love makes you do really stupid things, I 
                     | caught him, so I didn't lose
      *Night Spirit* | much just skin mostly, others lost everything
       Lady Aireanna | <<<<<<,,oh god that is unforgivable>>>>>
       Lady Aireanna | <<<<<<hang his ass this time>>>>
      *Night Spirit* | good point Aria, how does a Dom/me know to trust 
                     | the sub s/he is with?
         Aria (busy) | we talked about that today
           *Spartan* | or just to see the sincerity....just ask to be 
                     | private while u make a
           *Spartan* | call...tina did that at the airport with 
                     | me...........<after she asked for my
           *Spartan* | driverslicense>...........lol
           *Spartan* | i walked away and gave her space
         Aria (busy) | he and i have been together before....
       GrandPaDeSade | Aria, most don't realize it, but there are risks 
                     | for doms to. Some subs have
       GrandPaDeSade | problems to. Seen fatal attraction?
         Aria (busy) | but he hasn't played with me as hard as before as 
                     | we did this weekend... he
         Aria (busy) | doesn't know that I won't go and say... god look at 
                     | what this man(woman) did to
         Aria (busy) | me.....
       Lady Aireanna | good point
      Lord Excalibur | unfortunately there are a few subs who will do 
                     | anything and give anything to a
      Lord Excalibur | Dom to satisfy the fire inside
                effy | hm -- interesting thought, pain slut asking Dom to
                effy | beat her black n blue, then turns him in, how does 
                     | he
                effy | prove that he's not guilty?
       GrandPaDeSade | Including not saying when they are in real trouble
      *Night Spirit* | how indeed effy?
            *~tina~* | he doesnt effy.......remember the incident here in 
                     | ny recently?
                effy | how indeed?
      Lord Excalibur | thats true GPDS
       GrandPaDeSade | effy, you can't
            *~tina~* | 15 yrs the man is doing
       GrandPaDeSade | The law says you can not consent to be beaten
                effy | <shaking my head>
                effy | how come?
                effy | GrPa?
         Aria (busy) | can I mention that I think that the subs that do 
                     | that (give everything) to a
         Aria (busy) | dom/me to satisfy that fire.... are prolly the 
                     | kinds that are out of control?
         Aria (busy) | that would find some other way to do something to 
                     | themselves that would give
         Aria (busy) | them the opportunity to do so? because the fire is 
                     | driving them, not their own
         Aria (busy) | control to give up?
            *~tina~* | she cried rape, and non consensuality
      *Night Spirit* | ok so how do we know--this is ok, we can trust this 
                     | person and let them tie me
      *Night Spirit* | up or I can tie the slave up...what is the deciding 
                     | factor?
           *Spartan* | not considered a rational request and the person 
                     | recving the request should
           *Spartan* | know better and not do it...
                effy | and how does the Dom know when to stop pushing a
                effy | soft squishy limit?
       GrandPaDeSade | The law considers to to be temporairly insane if 
                     | you consent to being beaten.
       GrandPaDeSade | that or under pressure.
      Lord Excalibur | exactly Spartan, I have limits as you probably do
         Aria (busy) | yeah well than i guess I am mostly always insane
           *Spartan* | i was refering to the law....
                effy | ((of hers, not his))
         Aria (busy) | (biting back a comment)
       Lady Aireanna | .........this is all so elementary............if 
                     | you feel dangered.........then
       Lady Aireanna | stop
         Aria (busy) | of course Lady Aireanna
           *Spartan* | signed contract is only way to protect 
                     | oneself...<didnt know that
      Lord Excalibur | but what if you are restrained LA?
           *Spartan* | earlier>............................
                effy | that was not what I referring to, LA
           *Spartan* | not easy LA
       GrandPaDeSade | Not everyone in the scene is completely stable Lady 
                     | A
         Aria (busy) | but... i have never felt in danger....
            *~tina~* | absoluely LA, you do what you can to be 
                     | safe....take all precautions ....and
            *~tina~* | hope for the best
         Aria (busy) | Spartan, contracts are not considered valid
       Lady Aireanna | If you have no gut feeling............
      Lord Excalibur | hope for the best is not enough tina
           ~wrybrat~ | <sneaking in>
       Lady Aireanna | what are you doing anyway
                Arco | doen't talking about it first help at all?
       GrandPaDeSade | I hope you dever do Aria
         Aria (busy) | no matter what, they state that you were under 
                     | pressure when you signed...
            *~tina~* | I said take all precautions and be safe as well 
                     | Lord E
           *Spartan* | perhaps in their validity to  as to the law, but it 
                     | does show pre-consent to
           *Spartan* | the act and not just an attack..................
       Lady Aireanna | why put yourself in the posture if your unsure
       GrandPaDeSade | dever=never
         Aria (busy) | I play with people that are sane... and that I know 
                     | that know others, or I
         Aria (busy) | don't play... people that i meet in 3D and know in 
                     | vanilla situations
                effy | the flip side is that I have felt out of control of 
                     | the
                effy | situation (honestly out of control) but because of 
                     | the
                effy | trust, I let it continue.
       GrandPaDeSade | No spartan. Even if notarized, they say they don't 
                     | know what pressure yiou were
       GrandPaDeSade | under.
       Lady Aireanna | exactly
         Aria (busy) | Lady Aireanna, its not an issue of not feeling 
                     | safe... its a matter of feeling
         Aria (busy) | safe and then afterwards finding out that you were 
                     | wrong, I think.
      *Night Spirit* | LA I knew him 2 yrs, on the phone, email, talking 
                     | here, I spoke to others who
      *Night Spirit* | said he was ok, I let my friends know but they were 
                     | in North Carolina, I was in
      *Night Spirit* | Washington DC, alone the first night he was gentle, 
                     | the 2nd he tore the skin
      *Night Spirit* | off my nipples--I trusted the SOB now I have to go 
                     | back and relive it.....how
      *Night Spirit* | does one know when we can trust someone, where is 
                     | the line?
       Lady Aireanna | you never trust anyone here...........until you 
                     | know.
           *Spartan* | hanging up floger's n singletail, topping with  
                     | sign.....'out of
           *Spartan* | business'.......'gone fishin'............
      *Night Spirit* | effy good point
           *Spartan* | effy ?
                Arco | NS     nobody wants to get hurt
      *Night Spirit* | I have known GrPa a very long time and trust him
       GrandPaDeSade | Aria, are we sane? I would hate to meet someone who 
                     | was completely sane. think
       GrandPaDeSade | how boring. It the eratis nature that makes people 
                     | interesting.
                effy | yes Spartan?
         Aria (busy) | yes GrPa I think we are sane
      *Night Spirit* | took a while, he also had to help with my injuries
           *Spartan* | but is that not the points we try to achieve....a 
                     | state of total trust in a
           *Spartan* | situation u turn over control to another 
                     | ??????????????
                Arco | help in what way ns?
           *Spartan* | and then to pass them each next time ?
         Aria (busy) | I think lostonearth is sane, I think that Madrigal 
                     | is sane... I pretty much
         Aria (busy) | trust their comments (sutra's and lost's) that you 
                     | are sane
      *Night Spirit* | but how does one know, where is the point that this 
                     | nice person is trustworthy
      *Night Spirit* | enough to be alone with?
         Aria (busy) | otherwise, I would avoid you and NS....
           *Spartan* | creating levels of trust and relinqueshing more n 
                     | more control ..............
                effy | i was just speaking of the trust issue and how far 
                     | and
                effy | safety, yadayadayada... that's allm Spartan,
                effy | sometimes you cannot always be safety minded.
            *~tina~* | we can banter this all night....in the end were all 
                     | sayign the same thing
            *~tina~* | anayway
         Aria (busy) | however, I am very much looking forward to meeting 
                     | the two of you sometime in
         Aria (busy) | the future.
      *Night Spirit* | Arco we had to grow the skin back and nuture my 
                     | poor breasts
       GrandPaDeSade | We are not out of control, but I doubt anyone is 
                     | completely sane. You have
       GrandPaDeSade | never made an unreasonable decision, had an 
                     | unreasonable argument?
           *Spartan* | <hhhmmm, understanding..hearing her 
                     | words.....thinkin it has been a while since
           *Spartan* | we talked>........
                Arco | he helped in some way?
      *Night Spirit* | yes he did
           *Spartan* | dont gimme that look....................<g>
                Arco | did he feel horrible for hurting uou too much?
           *Spartan* | yea, that one
      *Night Spirit* | GrPa didn't hurt me
         Aria (busy) | no i have, but I have never played in that head 
                     | space... have you?
                effy | <laffin>
           *Spartan* | <glad she is laffin now>
           *Spartan* | lol
       GrandPaDeSade | Aria, we are looking forward to meeting you too.
         Aria (busy) | sane is a perception anyway <g>
         Aria (busy) | well thank you much Sir <G>
       GrandPaDeSade | Not playing Aria, real life.
         Aria (busy) | Yes Sir, I mean that as well.
      *Night Spirit* | ok here is a scene, this morning GrPa and I were 
                     | playing, really going at it,
      *Night Spirit* | suddenly I wasn't sure I was in subspace or 
                     | diabetic sugar space, so I said
      *Night Spirit* | TEST, I trusted him enough to stop the scene and 
                     | test the blood, which he did
       Lady Aireanna | medical alert NS
       GrandPaDeSade | No Arco, It wasn't me. And fortunatly for him, he's 
                     | not around here either.
      *Night Spirit* | I trust him to care for me, watch over me no matter 
                     | what we play or do
                Arco | i see gp
      *Night Spirit* | Arco the man who did this to me is Master Brett <BD>
                Arco | sounds like gp and ns had a great morning together
                Arco | ohhh i dont know him
       GrandPaDeSade | It was a great morning.
      Lord Excalibur | <look slyly at the airline tickets and thinking 
                     | about next weekend>
                Arco | happy to hear it gp and ns
      *Night Spirit* | I know I can trust him, but I know his words, his 
                     | voice, his touch, when I say
      *Night Spirit* | lower or higher I know he hears me I trust 
                     | him.....how did we get to the trust
      *Night Spirit* | from the first meeting
       GrandPaDeSade | Have you come down completely yet NS?
      *Night Spirit* | mainly I felt he listened to me
       Lady Aireanna | Goodnight all
      *Night Spirit* | he asked questions
       Lady Aireanna | lots to do
      *Night Spirit* | Night Lady A
         Aria (busy) | <<<<still hasn't from last night <g>
       Lady Aireanna | thanks and have a great evening
            *~tina~* | nite LA
                Arco | was there any pain involved NS?
       GrandPaDeSade | Night Lady A
       MoL's Katie J | Time and experience, NS ... is there any other way? 
                     |  In the beginning .. there
       MoL's Katie J | has to be a leap of faith at some point.
      *Night Spirit* | I asked questions he answered---it all boils down 
                     | to communication, and if you
      *Night Spirit* | feel hey something is wrong--it more likely is
      *Night Spirit* | Arco we are deep into S&M so you betcha
                effy | <-- always heeds any red flag or just weird feeling.
      *Night Spirit* | good effy
      *Night Spirit* | if s/he doesn't answer you find out why
      *Night Spirit* | all barriers must be lowered for trust to exist
       GrandPaDeSade | Aria, back to what we were saying, it could be said 
                     | that any argument is
       GrandPaDeSade | unreasonable, as seldom is anything accomplished 
                     | once you progress from
       GrandPaDeSade | discussion to argument.
      *Night Spirit* | honesty and communication
                effy | question is -- when does a Dom know when to stop
                effy | playing, when is THIER trust with you breached if 
                     | you
                effy | keep asking for more? (original question)
      *Night Spirit* | Katie do you feel going and totally trusting is a 
                     | leap of faith? or leap of
      *Night Spirit* | love? or just trust?
       GrandPaDeSade | Arco, I am affectionatly know by my friends as "The 
                     | Human nipple Clamp"
      *Night Spirit* | effy I trust GrPa to not go so deep he ignores my 
                     | needs, he says no more I
      *Night Spirit* | trust him to mean it for my own safety
       GrandPaDeSade | effy, this morning when I stopped, NS was still 
                     | asking for more.
                effy | NS -- you are inna long term relationship there, it 
                     | was
       GrandPaDeSade | I wasn't sure she could tell if she reached a limit 
                     | anymore.
                effy | more directed to the newer meets and exploration
                effy | stage of a relationship
         Aria (busy) | <listening to GrPa> Can I make a comment to that 
                     | Sir? about the arguement
         Aria (busy) | thing? I have this feeling... now that I am older, 
                     | wiser, more experienced,
         Aria (busy) | that makes me stop arguing now... cause you are 
                     | right, they are not
         Aria (busy) | productive....
       MoL's Katie J | For me, I felt the love ... and we had good 
                     | communication ... and had a strong
       MoL's Katie J | level of trust .. but it was still a leap to allow 
                     | him to tie me up that first
       MoL's Katie J | time ... to cede that control.
                effy | (hugs everyone)
                effy | i think I am going to bed.
                effy | everyone -- thank you for the chat and goodnight.
       MoL's Katie J | hugggs, effy
         Aria (busy) | night effy
       GrandPaDeSade | Yes, but you have to overcome the urge. Is that 
                     | completely sane? I think
            *~tina~* | nite effy <s>
       GrandPaDeSade | society operates on an agreed level of compromise 
                     | of sanity. Look at Germany
       GrandPaDeSade | during WW II for example.
      Lord Excalibur | The problem we are having here this evening is that 
                     | everyone has a differant
      Lord Excalibur | level at which they trust another. We all have our 
                     | own ideas on what "trust"
      Lord Excalibur | is, how it is acheived and when to allow total 
                     | control to another
       GrandPaDeSade | Night effy
         Aria (busy) | so I don't argue like that anymore... I get angry, 
                     | I say, Okay I am going to
         Aria (busy) | cool off
      *Night Spirit* | Night effy
      Lord Excalibur | night effy
         Aria (busy) | so its not even a matter of overcoming the urge.... 
                     | its a matter of wanting to
         Aria (busy) | come to a solution of the problem.
      *Night Spirit* | Lord E do you have a solution?
      Lord Excalibur | only to do as we have discussed here tonight, take 
                     | all precautions, know your
      Lord Excalibur | partner as well as you can, other than that it 
                     | still comes to the same thing,
      Lord Excalibur | differant people have differant levels
      *Night Spirit* | does anyone have a solution on where is the line of 
                     | trust, or is it something
      *Night Spirit* | we all must decide for ourselves?
       GrandPaDeSade | No unreasonable fears Aria? Heights, etc.? Get 
                     | along well with everyone? See
       GrandPaDeSade | what i mean?
       GrandPaDeSade | Agree LE
       MoL's Katie J | There's no litmus test .. you must decide for 
                     | yourself.
         Aria (busy) | no i don't have any unreasonable fears
      Lord Excalibur | no one can make you trust another, it is within 
                     | yourself and you alone
      Lord Excalibur | thank you GPDS
         Aria (busy) | and I do get along well with others... but I do see 
                     | what you mean... yet i
         Aria (busy) | would very much say, other than being a pain slut, 
                     | other that being so very
         Aria (busy) | much deep into BDSM that the vanilla world would 
                     | commit me, I believe that I am
         Aria (busy) | as sane as they come.
      *Night Spirit* | Mmmmmmmmm so then a Dom/me should earn the trust, 
                     | and subs should not give it
      *Night Spirit* | to just anyone, and visa versa?
      Lord Excalibur | yes NS, trust is earned on both sides as you say
       GrandPaDeSade | I'd go further LE. I think you trust the same 
                     | person differently at different
       GrandPaDeSade | times. For instance, if I were ill, I might not 
                     | trust NS to take care of me as
       GrandPaDeSade | much as a doctor.
         Aria (busy) | That however, is totally my perception. Yes Night 
                     | Spirit, I think however, that
         Aria (busy) | I would change that to both of them needing to earn 
                     | trust.
       MoL's Katie J | Agreed.
      Lord Excalibur | yes it depends on the person and the circumstances 
                     | as you say GPDS
      *Night Spirit* | Aria good point :)
       GrandPaDeSade | Obviously, I don't consider BDSM a commitable 
                     | thing. But I could be fro what I
       GrandPaDeSade | did to NS today also.
         Aria (busy) | <<<<leaving, sorry <sigh>
            *~tina~* | nie Aria <s>
      *Night Spirit* | Night Aria and hugs hon
         Aria (busy) | talk to you all later.
         Aria (busy) | bye
       MoL's Katie J | g'nite, Aria
       GrandPaDeSade | Night Aria
           ~wrybrat~ | huggggs Aria <s>
      Lord Excalibur | GPDS there will always be someone in this world 
                     | that will think you or I are
      Lord Excalibur | insane what ever we do ................ nite Aria
       GrandPaDeSade | Huggs aria
       MoL's Katie J | darn kids .... I have to fly <hugs to all who want 
                     | them>
       GrandPaDeSade | WHATEVER WE DO - I titally agree LE
       GrandPaDeSade | Totally even
      Lord Excalibur | <s>
       GrandPaDeSade | Talk about a freaudian slip
            *~tina~* | nie katie
      *Night Spirit* | ok I would say we made some good points.  I want to 
                     | once again thank you all
      Lord Excalibur | lol
      *Night Spirit* | for comming, and use the message sections to your 
                     | hearts desire, check out the
      *Night Spirit* | library for silken ties and ALTernative
       GrandPaDeSade | I give up
      Lord Excalibur | thanks again GPDS NS and Katie
       GrandPaDeSade | Thank all of you too.
       GrandPaDeSade | Thank you LE
      Lord Excalibur | good night all take care until we meet again
      *Night Spirit* | I will get this weeks and last weeks CO up in the 
                     | library this week, I couldn't
      *Night Spirit* | last week due to work :)
           ~wrybrat~ | night all <s>
      Lord Excalibur | pleasure GPDS
       GrandPaDeSade | Night wry
      *Night Spirit* | Hugs all and thanks for comming see you Sunday
********** 8/30/98  5:59 PM End logging Silken Ties.